{"id":1070,"date":"2015-04-17T16:13:13","date_gmt":"2015-04-17T20:13:13","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/adrenalinedrash.com\/?p=1070"},"modified":"2015-04-17T16:17:21","modified_gmt":"2015-04-17T20:17:21","slug":"this-is-healing-from-yom-hashoah-to-hope-via-a-renewal-beit-din","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/adrenalinedrash.com\/?p=1070","title":{"rendered":"This is Healing: From Yom Hashoah to Hope (Via a Renewal Beit Din)"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"pier<\/a>This is healing: When a rabbi asks gently, \u201cHow was that? To know you were Jewish for so many years?\u201d<\/p>\n

And the young man describes years of that feeling, of \u201calmost Jew,\u201d or \u201cnot Jewish enough.\u201d Those in the room hear the pain and the confusion.<\/p>\n

This is healing: When a rabbi acknowledges how hard your travels were and says, simply, \u201cThank you. Thank you for coming home.\u201d<\/p>\n

And the young woman smiles, her heart so open that the joy spills into every corner of the room.<\/p>\n

Even this is healing: A cold, cold night at the lake, with the rain alternating between a steady downpour and a soft drizzle, crazy and confusing moments with a small crowd of friends walking you down to the water, occasional shushing so neighbors are not alarmed. A ritual that involves each person present speaking kavanot <\/em>as you stand, and dunk, chatter your blessings and the Shema and finally, Shechechiyanu: Thank you, Holy One, for bringing us to this sacred moment in time.<\/p>\n

After years of knowing who you are, you are, \u201cJewish enough\u201d because your community has finally recognized that you were a Jew all along.<\/p>\n

Conversion to Judaism: What is that, really? Some years ago I realized that all the study and experience that preceded the actual beit din was not about building a new identity. The identity was already there.<\/p>\n

The time spent reading, living congregationally, journaling about Judaism and Jewish life helped fill in some corners, of course. But there is no \u201calmost Jew\u201d who could study \u2013 and master \u2013 all the aspects of a multi-cultured culture thousands of years old. No one born Jewishly could do that either. Study the Talmud all your life and you will still have no idea of how Jews lived in Alexandria in the first century of the Common Era (understanding the works of Philo, a prominent Jewish philosopher who lived and wrote in the city back then, would be a lifelong commitment on its own\u2026).<\/p>\n

None of us is, by any measure, ever \u201cJewish enough.\u201d Such a measure is both arbitrary and useless.<\/p>\n

In the end, as Renewal rabbis know full well, it is not about whether you have memorized the minor festivals or can recite the Thirteen Principles or even, simply, name the number of branches on a hanukiah<\/em>. It is about the heart and soul. It is about knowledge and understanding. It is about a word Jews seldom use freely.It is about faith.<\/p>\n

Our history makes it hard for us to advocate for faith. Our texts do not command belief, but action. We often birth our Jewishness \u2013 however we come by it \u2013 by asking questions. But there is also a faith in one’s Jewishness, a certainty, a knowing.<\/p>\n

This is healing: Still feeling the shiver, after warm showers and the application of many thick towels, they come into the room. The young couple before us will be married in almost exactly six months. He knew he was Jewish when he was\u00a0 just twelve, he told the rabbis. But when she told him she wanted to convert, he felt he had been granted permission. He finally knew how to go home.<\/p>\n

She is \u2013 heart and soul \u2013 connected to her people. She speaks of her pain at a Yom Hashoah gathering, and one of the rabbis says, \u201cWhen a Jew cries, and you cry, you know you are Jewish. When another Jew laughs, and you feel that joy, you know you are Jewish.\u201d<\/p>\n

They arrive in the room, hair still wet, the memory of the cold still clinging to them. Those waiting begin singing and clapping: \u201cSiman tov u\u2019mazeltov umazeltov v\u2019siman tov<\/em>!\u201d And afterwards, there are many warm and heartfelt blessings for long life, growth, a family and a Jewish home that is nourished, each and every day, by their commitment and their love.<\/p>\n

\u201cBe mensches,\u201d my husband, Ralf, says. \u201cBe good. That\u2019s not a blessing, it\u2019s a commandment.\u201d<\/p>\n

We all laugh. Then we go out into that good, dark night, a night that saw the transition from Yom Hashoah, from a day honoring grief and anguish and sorrow to a day of joy and hope.<\/p>\n

This is healing.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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